Following God and accepting His ways and plans is difficult. And when I say "difficult" I would be making a great understatement.

Sometimes it feels downright impossible.

My extended family recently had a tragedy hit that brought us all to our knees, made us hug our little ones tighter, and turn an eye to God with a big question of "Why?" One of my sweet cousins lost her 10 year yesterday. He was fine and then gone.

I know we are to trust God in all things, but I can see how people can stay mad at God for a lifetime. I've watched people ruin their own lives, try to ruin others, and live without care of others or themselves. Why do those people get to wake up everyday and suck while sweet Riley didn't get a chance to even make mistakes?

The Bible answer of "no one deserves this life" and words like "grace and mercy" seem to fall short in answering these questions. Because sometimes it seems some give all while others sacrifice none.

And it's always the good ones that are required to give the most.

So, to those life-wasters and ruiners (who I know snoop this blog) get your act together and be glad I'm not God.

To those who've been asked to give it all and you're on your knees without the energy to even ask why: God does have a plan. It's bigger than our why's and our anger towards Him. But it hurts. I know it hurts. I've been on your side of "why?" and "it's not fair". Hold on sister or brother. Hold on.